i'm trying to keep hold on myself. positives: israel is pulling out of the west bank. lana's reading my poetry at her slam. everyone's lovelife seems to be going okay. what i'm trying to submerge: papers. cty. housing falling through with a crash and the smoke rising upwards into the shape of a question mark. feeling powerless, faraway. papers. cty. housing. papers ...

I felt impotent and out of control, which I really hate. I needed to find sanctuary in a place where I could gather my thoughts and regain my strength.
... i'm going shopping.