stave is a good word

can you stave something or can you only stave off something? hum. while i ponder that, i hope you'll ponder depression-battling strategies for me because i've felt more despairing more often lately than i have since high skool. there's a very physical accompaniment to the mental state too, i've noticed: a swelling hollow feeling and a tightening of the screws in my shoulders.

it's stupid! why doesn't recognizing that it's stupid make it go away?

in addition to feeling stuck, and at the stupid mercy of my stupid moods, everywhere i go i bear with me the hint of the scent of soy sauce. while that perfume is not a direct byproduct of Depression, in poetic frames of mind i feel like it could be an accidentally perfect one.