happy birthday, rick (technically it was yesterday the 24th but it just occurred to me and i wanted to give him a shoutout.) ran into nomi b.a. on the metro -- it's her bday tomorrow, just like it's ari's, so happy birthday to both of them. ("all the people i used to know are an illusion to me now ...")

i just got home and i'm still pumping adrenaline, so much so that i yelled at my brother in the car. i went to see a documentary called Paragraph 175 which is going to be playing on hbo on july 9: it was a preview showing sponsored by amnesty int'l b/c they're trying to raise awareness of treatment of LGBTs around the world. (man, all of those should be links and i just don't have the time to find them right now ... forgive me ....) my office got an invite so martha passed it along to us. really, aside from the not getting paid and having to seek mentally-deadening employment to earn money, this is the sweetest internship. i spent all of today reading gloria steinem critiquing -- intelligently and informationally, of course -- both freud and advertising. i only began that second section; the first absorbed much of my attention. and we get to go to all these great programs for free. this showing was at visions cinema and they gave us free drinks (two diet cokes and a chai for me. damn typical.)
anyway, the film itself was extremely well-done and as harrowing as i'm sure the creators intended it to be. certainly it got its point across. "i am ashamed for mankind," said one survivor, right before he broke into tears.
yeah.
watch the movie, people. hbo. july 9 (i think.) i'm sure a big deal will be made of it.

check out the guestbook for yanni exhibiting signs of castration anxiety. :-)

man, i still have to pack -- i'm leaving tomorrow morning and of course i'm still stressing: maybe the reservations didn't go thru, maybe there won't be a ticket for me when i get to the desk ... this line of thinking is so common w/ me that part of me is calmly assessing my silver-lining options. if it turns out that at the last minute i have to stay home, i have my first writer's center class; my second NFMV program thing; and there's another cool flick showing at visions just this week that has ani difranco in it. and joc is coming down this weekend. see? it won't be terrible.
wish me luck.