it's officially february
so far it's had a mixed start. on the happy side, i have some news to report:
1) only one month til ben and i see each other. yes, this is the way i count. february = 1 month
2) elizabeth the awol and stefanie the kindsweetandgood are together. i just discovered that it wasn't a secret, which i interpreted to mean i could broadcast it far and wide. ahh thrilled. ahh.
3) it's jamie's birthday. jamie!! who is now 20 and who has been since 5th grade one of my closest and most dependable friends. she's the one i traveled europe with after israel. enchanted by kobenhavn -- that's one of the main reasons i'm back here now. jamie who will always listen or cry with you (in or out of the girls bathroom at jds) or share in your neuroses or sing in public or gossip over chai. i love you, darling.
4) tomorrow is tamar's birthday. tamar!! who will also turn 20 and with whom i haven't spoken in weeks. i don't think she reads the site. when i get nostalgic or brood over past intense friendships, i think of tamar. whatever the reason that we've drifted, i still adore her and think she's one of the best people i'll ever know
5) spent a pleasant evening with eric and kong drinking hot chocolate and tea
6) was informed by sorelle that she is writing a short play inspired by an event in my life. she asked once what the best compliment i received was and apparently it made an impact. i can't wait to hear how the story ends as i myself never knew.

on the not-so-good front, i slept badly last night, troubled by dreams of death and dismemberment. i woke up and had to read a little to calm down. i could almost conjure up my father's voice intoning, "the great gray greasy limpopo river ..." one of the few books i remember ever being read aloud to me. i liked the independence of reading to myself but i think i missed on a little of the magic.

oh, and heh heh